That's what I feel like the Lord is saying to me right now. Wait.
It's an interesting feeling, this waiting. What am I to wait for? Since moving to Southern California two years ago, I've been waiting to buy a house. At first it was because we were trying to sell our house back in Michigan, and wait for the end of the lease here, then we'd buy a house. After that it was wait to save for a down payment and now it's that and pay down some debt first.
Am I waiting for a house, is that the next step?
I've also had in my mind visions of Michigan and the life we had back there, thinking of what it would be like to move back. But then I have to remind myself that the Lord has never called me back to someplace I've already been. Not that He can't or won't ever do that, it's just that I don't think that is where He will lead us. But the thoughts are still there. It even went as far as having a dream the other day that we were back at our old house and it was fall and I was feeling the environment of autumn in the air, the coolness to the breeze and the colors of the leaves, the way the neighborhood looked and who lived in which house and what the houses looked like. It was strange.
As much as we enjoy our Southern California location and the proximity to our families, am I waiting for another job change for Ryan, another relocation?
There are many things in my mind that are just on hold. Things that can't move forward until He moves us forward. I'm a little bit anxious and a lot bit nervous about this whole waiting thing. I guess I'm just nervous that I won't like it when the waiting is over and the answers are in hand. But I must remind myself that the Lord has the best in store for me, His plans are good and perfect, as I have always seen them to be once looking back.
And so I wait. I will wait on the Lord when there are many conflicting thoughts that swirl in my mind. I will wait for His timing and release. I will wait on Him.
It's an interesting feeling, this waiting. What am I to wait for? Since moving to Southern California two years ago, I've been waiting to buy a house. At first it was because we were trying to sell our house back in Michigan, and wait for the end of the lease here, then we'd buy a house. After that it was wait to save for a down payment and now it's that and pay down some debt first.
Am I waiting for a house, is that the next step?
I've also had in my mind visions of Michigan and the life we had back there, thinking of what it would be like to move back. But then I have to remind myself that the Lord has never called me back to someplace I've already been. Not that He can't or won't ever do that, it's just that I don't think that is where He will lead us. But the thoughts are still there. It even went as far as having a dream the other day that we were back at our old house and it was fall and I was feeling the environment of autumn in the air, the coolness to the breeze and the colors of the leaves, the way the neighborhood looked and who lived in which house and what the houses looked like. It was strange.
As much as we enjoy our Southern California location and the proximity to our families, am I waiting for another job change for Ryan, another relocation?
There are many things in my mind that are just on hold. Things that can't move forward until He moves us forward. I'm a little bit anxious and a lot bit nervous about this whole waiting thing. I guess I'm just nervous that I won't like it when the waiting is over and the answers are in hand. But I must remind myself that the Lord has the best in store for me, His plans are good and perfect, as I have always seen them to be once looking back.
And so I wait. I will wait on the Lord when there are many conflicting thoughts that swirl in my mind. I will wait for His timing and release. I will wait on Him.
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
John 14:27
Jeremiah 29:11
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
John 14:27
10 comments:
Waiting is such a hard thing. It seems like we almost need to pursue it, in order to actually wait.
Hang in there. Seems like God is making it known to you.
I feel like I'm in a holding pattern right now, too. Patience is not one of my stregnths. One of my favorite scriptures: Be still and know that I am God; keeps coming to mind.
Heather
I feel like I'm in a holding pattern right now, too. Patience is not one of my stregnths. One of my favorite scriptures: Be still and know that I am God; keeps coming to mind.
Heather
You are wise. I will pray for peace regardless of where or when you are supposed to be. Blessings to you!
What great faith you have. Good for you for waiting on the lord. I have a scripture that I like about that too. Isaiah 40:31
But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
I hope things work out and you can see what the Lord wants for you!
Sometimes when people move a lot they get into a pattern. Every couple of years they begin to prepare, both mentally and physically, for the impending move. I was just talking about this to some military wives.
I'll be praying for God's will in your life and hoping that He's going to keep you in San Diego for awhile. You're fun to have around!
Nothing turns me into a toddler quicker than having to wait for something...especially when you don't know what it is!
I have been in a similar situation where I felt God was preparing me for something big to come. One time I obeyed and was faithful in doing what He wanted me to do and once I was not. It is worth it to stay faithful and obedient-trust me.
You will be in my prayers... patience is such a hard thing but it sure does help you grow!
Such a great post. I have been "in waiting" several times...I think I'm still there at some levels. It's definitely an ACTION isn't it? Perfect verses to stand on, tho'.
Praying for peace, for you. I sure hope you stay!
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